Sunday, May 16, 2021

Questions Show Faith And Trust


Why is this happening? Really God, another issue? How am I going to pay this bill? I am so tired of being sick? Where are you, God? Can I just have one easy, quiet day?

Friday, April 30, 2021

Richard Nelson, Thank You Just Isn't Enough


The days of late had been dark. Joy was absent. Drowning in doubt, and consumed with anger, hurt could not help but pour out of me. As I sat in a friend’s house, surrounded by brothers who loved me, I finally admitted what my heart had felt for so long – I was mad at God, and I hated the Hell He was allowing my family to walk through, and in all honesty, I wanted nothing more to do with Him.

Sunday, April 4, 2021

Our Pain Has A Purpose


God, why am I walking through this? What good can possibly come out of this? Is there really a reason for this in my life? What possible purpose could the pain I and my family are walking through have? 

Monday, March 15, 2021

This Body Is Not My Home

“Things were spinnin' 'round me

And all my thoughts were cloudy

And I had begun to doubt all the things that were me...

Somethin' is just not right

'Cause I know that I've gotta get outta here

I'm so alone...

Wednesday, February 24, 2021

Suffer For Good

“Come on Charles. You can do it. Just 30 more seconds. Push yourself, push yourself. Don’t give up. Come on; give me five more seconds. you’re strong and you can do it.” Once or twice a week these days, I “torture” myself, and I hear statements like these, from someone who will not let me give up.

Sunday, December 27, 2020

My Inspiration


It is 2 a.m., December 27th, our anniversary, and surprise, surprise, I am still awake. Sleep very often alludes me, and tonight is one of those nights, but as I sit here, looking back on our journey, I am overwhelmed with just how blessed a man I am.

"Let It Go" - Why Are You Holding On To That

“Let it go.” – Frozen (every parent’s favorite movie)